Im in total state of intoxication!! My mind is slow, my movements are alien to be me and my body needs to be stretched even though it feels numb. my eyes have decided to become chines and i feel like im melting into oblivion!!! soon i will pass out forgetting all of today and i will go to a dreamless sleep which will be the closest thing to death. This is a mere facade of what it feels like when you take drugs. Todays choice was a prescription pill from a friend so hence i have no clue what i took. This is my escape canal. it is a temporary escape but sometimes as an addict you just need a quick get away to be able to face life the next day and yes you might get the urge that day as well but hopefully you have mere moment of strength so that you can face life sober even if it means hiding in your room and numbing your brain with the useless brainwash of tv!!! but for the days of delusional death this is the next best thing... to just die for few hours and wake up with the new hope that it might just be a better day today!!!! and if its not you can just face reality that your life sucks or you can just take another magic pill :) Ahhh thank god for the pharmaceutical companies and their vast variety of mind numbing candy :) and the best part is they are the legal drug dealers of the world.. See the low grade drug lords of the world need to change their strategy- why sell lil bags of coke and E and all other bullshit stuff , living your life in fear, never trusting anyone, worrying about smuggling your goods, when you can damn easily work with the government (instead of against) and get involved with pharmaceutical company or better yet start your own and put your surplus of coke and whatever else into some new wonder drug that will cure some new unknown disease and BAM! your a legal businessman doing the same kind of business but now you have the respect of the government, doctors and so on... Well thats what i would do if i was a drug lord!!!!
